Showing posts with label Essay. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Essay. Show all posts

Friday, October 29, 2010

English this year

Over the past few months, i have written about many different subjects.  First, i planned on writing about my daily life, but i found that boring to work on.  The next thing i tried to accomplish was to blog about politics, but again, it was just too boring.  I ended up writing about what ever was on my mind: I wrote about a past experience when i got hit is the head, “The Ball Game”, a book i erad that i thought would be a good class book “The Silent Boy”, and a story i wrote in writing class “Broken bones” (part 1 and 2)  I also wrote many responses to others’ blogs: One about Bullying, one about Freshman Year, one about Racism, one about “LOL” and one about twitter. I also enjoyed writing a more academic essay about Of Mice and Men:
The novella, Of Mice and Men by John Steinbeck portrays two migrant workers who seek a farm of their own. Throughout the story, Steinbeck provides characters who oppose this, saying it is ‘impossible’.  One of them, George, is very practical and straightforward. He really cares about his traveling partner, Lennie, and takes care of him even though he is a burden...They have a conflict with fate through out the whole book.
I like how there is a balance between free writing and structural, more strict writing. So overall, throughout writing these blogs, i saw that i need a lot of improvement in writing, still, and that i actually enjoy writing in this class because of the open ended... everything.  


This first quarter surprised me.  I found that writing two blogs a week have been much easier than i first expected.  At first, i thought that I'd spend three or four hours a week writing two blogs, but instead it only takes me about one a half hours.  This caught me off guard, but now that i think about it, i think that my writing has changed dramatically because of the summer reading assignments.  During my three middle school years (and throughout my whole life) writing has come to me very hard.  I could not get my ideas down on paper, organize them, and have them make sense.  I first realized my major advancement in writing in either grade, where i learned to organize and make my ideas comprehensive.  Then over the summer, i procrastinated a lot, and while i tried to cram all of my writing into a few days write, i realized that i made a major mistake, and i learned to never procrastinate that badly again.  But from this, came a good thing: i learned how to get my ideas on paper.  because i had so much to do in such a little time, i just wrote, and wrote, and wrote.  I didn't look back and try to edit until i finished the whole essay or paragraph,which i had  been doing and slowed me down.  This is what i believe brought me to where i am today, but i still know that i have much to work on.  


Even thought i learned my lesson to never procrastinate on long term projects, i still happen to do so during my blog posts.  One of my goals for this next quarter is to work on procrastination (especially because the require has bumped itself up to three blog posts a week, instead of two).  In the moment, i usually wait until the Friday night that it is due, and actually start working at around 10:00.  It has not been a problem in me not having enough time to finish, but the constant thought of it haunts me the whole week.  even with this constant pressure, it is not enough to get me to start working on it early.  I think my problem is that i do not work well unless i am under pressure.  Another problem with procrastinating is that if i am busy that day, then i will fail that week’s assignment.  An idea that i have developed to fix this problem is to work on my blogs at the same time i do currently but for the next week.  I would just have to set the blog to post itself after 12:00 that day.  This way, i will not have to worry about that week’s assignment until the next Friday.  It seems like the same amount of work, but this way, i will not be constantly reminded about the whole bunch of work i have to finish Friday night.  Also, if i miss that Friday, i still have a whole week to complete my work.


Another problem i face is that, right now, i do not edit my posts before posting them.  I do this out of laziness and tho thought that my writing was good enough the first time around, but while i was rereading my blog the other day, i found a lot of embarrassing grammar and spelling errors, along with some sentences and ideas that just do not make sense.  From now on, i will proofread my writing before posting them.  


Another thing that surprised me was how easy it was to write.  Because of the open ended topics and different (a little easier) expectations, i could write freely, without the pressure of making all of my writing flawless, with many layers of editing.  It is a way for me to express what i feel.  In other classes, i feel confined when writing.  For example, if i have an idea that seems “out there” i tend to not include that in my writing because i feel that the teacher may grade it based on that thought.  also, i fear that i would not be able to display that thought strongly enough for the reader to comprehend.  On the other hand, doing these blog posts, i feel confident enough to actually take off my mask and write my true feelings and thoughts.  And once i started doing this, surprisingly, i found it actually much easier than i thought.  i would just write down my ideas quickly, and then go back and tweak them.  I think that the slackened pressure helped me do this by encouraging me to be brave and try a new thing, without the worry of crashing and burning.  Also, this open ended prompt adds a little fun to writing.  I actually wrote about the acronym “LOL”:
I believe that the acronym LOL appeared because a person who easily laughed actually laughed out loud when chatting or text and got tired of typing “laugh out loud” and made LOL up, then people talking to him didn’t realized at that he/she was actually laughing out loud and that he just meant “hey that’s funny” or something in that content.  They then started saying it and passed it on, and so on.  Since the “l” and the “o” are right on top of each other, it is easy to type LOL quickly.  It’s much faster than typing LQTM (“laugh quietly to myself”) or simply haha.  It soon becomes a habit, and then now everyone is doing it.
This is something that we would never write about in a “normal” class, but it just feels 'right' to write about this in this particular class.  And it actually feels like we are in a creative writing class because of all the new perspectives that we look at, the different writing to pics, and just the over all freedom in writing this year.  Personally, i enjoy the way Mr. Sutherland teaches more than the average English class.

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

Character Vs Fate. Of Mice and Men


The novella, Of Mice and Men by John Steinbeck portrays two migrant workers who seek a farm of their own. Throughout the story, Steinbeck provides characters who oppose this, saying it is ‘impossible’.  One of them, George, is very practical and straightforward. He really cares about his traveling partner, Lennie, and takes care of him even though he is a burden.  Lennie is what one would call a ‘gentle giant’.  He is overly powerful, yet he cannot control it.  to make it even worse, Lennie does not have a good understanding of anything, and doesnt even know his own strength.  On their quest to earn their farm, they face many people who say it is impossible, and they have to work hard to keep a low profile, in order to earn enough money.  This is difficult because the boss’s son, Curley, is always looking for random fights.  They have a conflict with fate through out the whole book.
For example, George tells Lennie a story about their fate and heavily contrasts it with what they yearn to actually do:
”’Guys like us, that work on ranches, are the loneliest of guys. They got no family... no place... but with us it ain’t like that. We got a future... Some day we’re gonna get a jack together and we’re gonna have a little house’...And ‘Live off the fatta the lan’’” (page 13-14)
George tells about what all ranch people live like.  In those days, if one does not have a ranch of their own, they would never get one, but Lennie and George try to break free of this fate by earning their own farm.  They seem hopeful because they think they are different, better, than the other, and they are.  But Lennie seems to always get into trouble, so George has to especially look out for him and be extremely cautious, in order to keep him out of trouble.  However, Lennie seems to pull trouble towards himself, though.
Even though Lennie tries the hardest to keep out of trouble, he is always drawn into it, without intention. For example:
“‘Of course he ain’t mean but he gets into trouble alla time because hes so God damn dumb. Like what happened in Weed...’” (page 41)
...In Weed, Lennie had seen a red dress a girl was wearing.  Being himself, he wanted to touch it, so he went up and grabbed the dress.  Since he was so big and strong, the girl thought that he was trying to rape her.  She started to scream.  This frightened Lennie and he held on tighter.  It took many men and a hit over the head to get him to release the poor girl’s dress.  She was not hurt though.
Lennie seems to attract problems with his own actions, but they are not his fault.  He has this metal block that does not allow him to understand things as well as most people.  He also does not think that much, so his actions are usually wrong, and because he is so strong, someone may get hurt or scared by what he did wrongly.  As George said, he is not mean, but he is so ‘dumb’, that his actions make him seem like he is mean.  Throughout this book, however, Lennie tries especially hard to stay out of trouble.  He fights against fate to keep out of trouble and to actually earn his coveted farm.
Also, Lennie and George face another fate throughout trying to stay out of trouble.  Once Curley takes a glance at Lennie, he feels jealous of Lennie’s size and immediately sets out for trouble, and George warns Lennie to stay out of any fights and make as little contact with him as possible but George says:
“‘Ya know, Lennie, I’m scared I’m gonna get tangled with that bastard myself.  I hat his guts. Jesus Christ!...” (page 37)
Although George warns Lennie to stay out of trouble, Curly makes it impossible for anyone to like him.  They must stay out of the fight in order to earn enough to buy the farm.  It seems inevitable because Curly wants the fight so bad.  In time, it will happen, and it is a matter of fighting with fate to stay out of it.
Lennie and George face trying to stay out of a fight, in order to stay out of trouble, in order to earn enough money for their little house.  All of these fates work against their goal.  Even though they work extremely hard to try and make it, fate prevails, and George stays a migrant worker forever.  Even now, people strive to earn their own business.  They want to work their own hours (ball game) and not get bossed around by unfair superiors (Curley).  They strive for something to call their own, and even now, few actually make it.  The struggle against fate to work oneself up the economic ladder is always present.

Tuesday, September 28, 2010

Thesis and Three Bodies

Q always often misunderstands (and is misunderstood by) others.


He often jumps to conclusions and makes false inferences that cause many of his discomforts.  After Q introduces Lll to his great grandfather Nb’a Ng’a, he thinks she doesn't like him, and when she asks about him, Q thinks:
“I suspected she was remaining silent in order to embarrass me later in some spectacular way, in front of her family, or else-and, for me, this was an even worse hypothesis- she was making an effort to talk about other things only because hes felt sorry for me... ‘Are you joking?’”(77)
Q is very self conscious and thinks that Lll may try to embarrass him.  This shows a lot about him because he does nothing to stop it, and  he thinks that maybe he deserved the embarrassment. Also, although Q assumes Lll might be “sorry for” him, it seems more likely that he is sorry for himself. Q could not believe his ears when she told him that she wanted to visit his great uncle again, and actually thought that it was some kind of a sick joke.


Also, Q believe that the New Ones would be terrified of him because he is a dinosaur.  As he takes time to drink for the springs, he believe that the reaction of the New one next to here would be terror:
“I could already imagine her desperate screams the moment she saw me, her breathless flight.  she would spread the alarm, and the New Ones and the new ones would come out and hunt me... I should tear her limb from limb at once”(98)
He seems to be over confident, in that he feels as if he is a great beast that everyone should fear.  But on the other hand, he fears that the New Ones will come and shows a little vulnerability, and feels like he should prevent this through violence.  His inference almost got him into a lot of trouble.  If he had killed her, then her tribe would Have gone after him and killed him.  Q was lucky that she talked to him before he got too hasty.

In addition to misunderstanding others, Q is often misunderstood by them.
“If he wanted to fight, I was ready. But the mood of the village had changed in recent time: they made a joke of everything... ‘Yes, I am one... a  Dinosaur!’... general snickering broke out.”(108)
throughout the The Aquatic Uncle and the Dinosaurs, Q is always an outsider.  Once he begins to adapt to his surroundings, the others change.  For example, before, Q does not want to fight, when Zahn did, now when Q wants to fight, Zahn does not.  Also, he tries to hide that he is a dinosaur throughout the story while the New Ones are suspicious, but when they become comfortable around him, he reveals his secret, but no one believes him.